About Me Name: Choo Teck Peng
Nick: Apple
Gender: Male
DOB: 01/02/1986
Horoscope: Aquarius
Character: LONER, Serious attitude problem, kawaii, simple-minded person that thinks too much...
Email: apple_ah@hotmail.com
Camp: Hendon Camp
Course: Weapon
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Saturday, September 05, 2009
commitment
how much am i willing to commit myself into it, i ask myself? perhaps i am too used to be single... perhaps i have doubt in how much i am able to give up on my existing lifestyle... too used to have freedom... too used to be able to spend my time as i want it uninterupted... having another person into my life is not going to be easy for me to adjust... mentally and physically... though i noe it will come sooner or later... perhaps i am still not ready that y i have the doubt... still not ready to accept the changes in my life...
is not about finding the rite gal... is just that i dun even have confidence to sustain a relationship, how am i going to have the right to be think about whether she is rite for me... to be judging other... to judge if she is the one for me...
ppl say that it is okie to fail in relationship, at least u learnt somethings from it... ya true... then i suppose i should just love every gals i see till i find the right 1... zzzz... how many hearts u wan to break? how many ppl time u wan to waste? easy said than done... try and u might success... if u dun try, then u fail definitely... that y teachers always tell us shade at least something if we dun noe the correct ans during MCQ qns... hopefully we will hit lottery... zzz
i am not young... though ppl nowaday normally marry at their late 20s... i also wan to have my own partner... i also wan to have my own family... someone to grow old wif...
perhaps i am just afraid to fail hence afraid to start... i dun noe it myself...
need more time to think it through... need more time to understand each other... more like need more time to be mentally prepare on my side... weighting the pro and con... solving if 1+1=2... perhaps i am just being perfectionist... wanting everything to go as plan... wanting my relationship to be smooth sailing... well mr apple... nothing is perfect... and not everything is up to ur control...
thinking ar thinking... i am thinking too much again...
being wif someone is sweet... and at times bitter... or sour from eating vinegar... though it can be spicy when we become salty together... at least it is better than being bland... having each taste in moderation along our life is wat making love so interesting... haha... this last paragraph have nothing to do wif the above post, i wrote it due to my overflowing talent... i just like playing wif words... leslie is going to belittle my ability again if he see this... but i doubt he would bother to read my post without ppl telling him to do so... meaning, read and dun tell him... perhaps i am thinking too much again... who bother about telling other ppl... zzz... i have contracted steven's self-talking virus...
